From The Desk of Maverick Brenton.
Subject: Finding The Answers You Seek.
The other night, when it was late and dark and the moon was high in the sky.
I sat in a spot just outside my house.
It was a Friday, and it was late in the evening.
Some drunks were walking up the road and I listened to them in the silence.
I wondered what their lives were like.
I wondered if they had any ambition and if they ever thought about rising above their bad habits.
I thought about many things out there.
There was one thing that hit me particularly hard though.
And I didn’t realise it, until I kicked my feet up and calmed my mind.
I realised that I sat in this exact same spot, four years ago – right when I was beginning my journey.
I sat in that exact same spot wondering who the hell I was and what the hell I was doing.
I was 18.
Four years later – after one hell of an adventure that took me far and wide, I sat in the exact same spot.
But.
I now had answers.
And life made a little more sense.
I always knew I was a writer.
An Entrepreneur.
Always.
I never accepted this though.
And I still haven’t.
Back then, just after High School - I knew nothing about myself.
All I had was curiosity, passion and the desire to head off into the world in search of something I could not explain in words.
I wanted answers to two questions that bothered me deeply:
Who Am I?
And..
Why Am I Here?
Those are hard questions to answer.
They are questions that everybody wants to answer.
And they are questions almost nobody can answer.
But the answer is always right under your nose. Hiding in front of your face. It’s always been there. And always will be there.
You know who you are.
And you know why you are here.
However, you, like myself - are simply afraid to admit it.
So you pretend you don’t know.
Most of us don’t believe we can get what we truly want.
So we push it away into the corner of our minds - hoping that we will forget about it.
Unfortunately that does not work though.
And we can never forget who we are because who we are is the essence of our entire life.
To deny that voice in the back of your mind and in the depths of your soul.
That is to torture yourself.
It’s painful.
It takes a lot of courage to finally look in the mirror and say hello to who you really are.
It’s takes balls to really listen to yourself.
And to learn how to do it - you have to go on a journey.
A journey that will be unique to you.
A journey that will consist of challenges and obstacles and pain and fun and adventure.
You see..
It’s a paradox – waking up.
When you finally wake up, everything changes and nothing changes.
You see what you always ignored and now you begin to become who you truly are.
It’s not easy either.
So destroy the idea that following your true path and becoming who you really want to be - will be easy.
Nothing could be further from the truth.
Nothing is harder than becoming who you really want to be because it’s so important.
And the more important something is - the harder it will usually be.
Maybe you’re an Artist. Maybe you’re a Teacher. Maybe you’re an Entrepreneur. Maybe you’re an Explorer.
Whatever it is – you will know, I promise.
Don’t tell yourself you don’t know because you do know.
What makes us think we don’t know is the fact that our minds get so caught up in the games of other people and the expectations of the world we live in - that we simply cease listening to our self.
We delegate our decision making to other people.
And we act like we don’t know what we want.
And so it isn’t that we don’t know who we are.
We just forget.
So how do you remember who you are?
I have absolutely no idea.
The universe is a magical and complicated thing that works in a mysterious way - and only by paying close attention to life can you begin to see how it operates.
But what I do know is this:
Remembering who you are is not something that happens all of a sudden – it’s the end result of a journey.
The hero’s journey.
The prize at the end of this journey - is finally making the decision to listen to that voice deep inside, instead of all the voices outside.
I have not made that decision yet. I still don’t know all the answers.
And I have only scratched the very surface of life’s wonders.
For life is a big puzzle.
You must put all the pieces together to see what it truly is.
Until Next Time.
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